12.29.2013

New Years resolution.

So my New Years resolution this year is a little different then usual. I'm not vowing to lose weight or quit dr pepper. I'm aiming for something that will really affect my day to day life permanently and help me to be a happier person.

This year my New Years resolution is to stop caring so much what other people think of me. To stop trying to be friends with people who clearly don't want to be friends with me. To let the past stay in the past and always look forward.

This year I was so blessed to get a new best friend. Michael has been such a blessing in mine and Landon's lives in so many ways. One of those ways is he brought a new group of friends into my life. A group of friends that functions like a family and not like a high school clique.

It's always been hard for me to let go of old friends but sometimes that's just what you need. To let the past stay in the past. If people don't care enough about you to try and be in your life then why should you worry and stress about trying to remain theirs? I feel like I always thought I knew what friendship was about. Seeing Michael's relationships with his friends has shown me that I really had no clue and has also made me realize, sadly, that I have had very few REAL friends over the course of my life. It has also made me super grateful for the for the friends he has brought into my life.

I hope this change in my life will help me be a happier, fuller person and that I will stop letting my feelings get hurt as much.

What's your resolution?

1.21.2013

I have a dream...

Politics aside, today is a pretty amazing day.

I have so many feelings about this subject so I am going to try my best to organize the clutter in my head the best that I can.

Wow... Our country has come so far, we as people have come so far. A LOT of us still have far to go and we aren't quite where we should be but... we have a black president.

I am so proud to say that I live in a country where a person who once had to use seperate bathroom and sit in the back of the bus can now run for and even become our president.

Did I vote for him? No. But it had nothing to do with his skin color, after all he bleeds the same as I do.

Racism has always been something that truely HURT my heart. That someone should be treated less or devalued because their skin has a different mix of pigments and whatever else it is that makes skin different colors, has never made sense to me. Hair is different colors... skin is different colors. We are all people.

I can't imagine what it was like to live back in that time. Back when people were punished for their genetic make up.

50 years ago a bold man made a bold speech that started to change the course of history. I would give anything to see his face today, to talk to him and ask him how it makes him feel after all this time to see a black man RUNNING our country.

Politics aside.. the previous 4 years aside... the next 4 years aside. Something that so many people never ever thought would happen has happened. Today I am so proud of our country. I am afraid for our country, but I am proud of it the same.